ah... i need to be on the left lane soon. ah... there's some space and i can move in. ah... i shall signal to go into that lane.
tik tok tik... HONKSSSSS!!!! stupid selfish old man decided to speed to fill the SPACIOUS gap and HONKS while doing so.
ouch. grouchy old man. so mean. T_T bully small boy.
ah. nevermind right lane is still faster~ OH. left lane is closed.
HA! serves you right old man, you still need to come to the right lane later. i guess, THANKS~ i might be slow but i'm in-front of you.
and ah. i didn't need to be on the left lane just yet, not my turning yet.
so EAT my DIRT you old sagging asshole.
i am amazed that i no longer need to be evil to certain people. karma has its way for to handle things vengeance for me. ahhh...
edited: 1500, 19.04.08 OMG look at my england. OMG the grammar. horror horror... digging a hole on the ground to burry my face~ tergamak aku gi correct grammar orang lain manakala aku punya macam tahi~ kekeke...
malaysians we are the most friendly drivers. i do admit. LOL.
i... have not been able to function properly. there has been too much emotions going on lately. some pleasant. some, well the opposite direction. at times they don't mean anything. as life has to go on. but there are just times, often times, i wish i was back like how i used to be. i don't want to care. i don't want to feel. i don't want to love. i want to hate. and shield myself from everyone. i don't trust. i don't believe anymore. each day now. i am feeling the old me back. i want to be what i used to be.
why should i learn to trust people around me, when all i have going on now is hate.
dengan akhirnya undian. satu perkara yang ku lega, PALLING lega, ialah sami akhirnya disingkiri. dan nasib juga dia mengakui kekalahannya.
sedar diri je la~ rakyat tidak sukai.
YAYs!!! tamat juga kuasa anda!!!
tapi apa ertinya? perubahan ni bukan setakat OPP mengambil alih kawasan tertentu, tapi juga apa ertinya sebagai seorang rakyat malaysia.
sudahkah kita bangun dari tidur, dari mendiamkan diri selama ini, dan hanya pandai membuat bising, bila keadaanya tidak selesa.
ia memang benar, yang kita telah menyuarakan pendirian kali ini. tapi adakah kita berjuang sehingga setakat ni sahaja? dengan segala perubahan ni, kita patut mengambil kesempatan, untuk menjadi seorang rakyat malaysia dengan lebih bangga.
kita tidak seharusnya membiarkan sahaja pemimpin yang berjuang demi kita, tapi juga memainkan peranan kita sebagai penduduk dan rakyat.
walau bagaimana cacatnya sistem negara, atau politiknya, ini adalah negara kita.
ini juga masanya pemimpin baru dihulurkan bantutan anda. jangan salahkan je kalau pemimpin baru jatuh nanti. yang anda salah undi. tidak patut mencalonkannya. hulurkan la bantuan anda untuk menjadikan negara ini lebih makmur dan maju. dan kaya~~~ kita ada petroleum, tanah, tapi miskin je la.
lihat je la, singapura yang tidak memiliki apa-apa tapi lebih makmur, maju dan kaya! sehingga memiliki beberapa syarikat dari luar negaranya. dan mengambil-alih, membeli syarikat BESAR siut dari negara USA, CHINA, dan sebagainya.
kita juga patut menunjukkan kepada negara lain yang kita bangga menjadi rakyat negara. jadi, bangga la, bangga la dengan menggunakan bahasa negara sendiri juga.
sebab hanya dengan bahasa ni sahajalah, kita boleh kutuk orang lain bila kat luar negara. oh maklumlah ini sebab hanya kita yang memahaminya
HAHAHA. omg. i tried. LOLs... i hope there isn't much spelling mistakes or major tatabahasa errors. LOLs!!!
i can't write anymore in malay. i am so bursting up here. it's too funny.
but seriously we still have our roles to play. it's not done yet.
i do hope it makes sense. stop saying we'll wait and see what the OPP can do. or what the BN could have done better. you are a MALAYSIAN as well.
and be proud to use your national language. i MEAN it!
and learn to recycle. reuse. reduce. it's for our own good. :D
this is a community service, brought to you by... bit*chin. LOLs!
it's a fact that if you are the youngest you are voiceless.
it's also a fact that if you, are a grandparent and you over spoil your grandchildren, you loose your authorization later in the years.
unlike those days, where everything had to go thru the old lady of the house, in the modern house holds the grandkids have the power
it's a fact that if you are not wealthy you don't posses they power to VOICE.
it's a fact that i dislike your husband. but i supported your fucking marriage. even when mother decided to rant about his status to everyone. i was there screaming on the phone that it's YOUR LIFE not HERS.
MONICA CHIN AI-SAN. i swear you are going down to hell. *and hell i don't want to see you there! so PLEASE be a good girl and go to HEAVEN!*
they way you mistreated your grandma, the woman who you used to ASK for gold jewelry every other month when you were a chile. you side the maid and scream at your own grandma? what the fuck is wrong with your stupid brain? she's so damn old and you said those words to her? just fucking ignore it! shit head!
yes i scream at grandma. but cuz she can't hear! and we are all bad tempered! but do i abandon her? do i leave her hungry all the time!? fuck no i get her stuffs! i buy her fruits! i get her, her jacobs!
you just yell and yell and show your fucking bossy attitude! and your husband say i'm the little prince in the family!
well YES~ i AM! don't be jealous cuz you're 36! OLD~ and was desperate in getting married~ cis cis cis!!!
i swear if you mistreat our mother later in life. i'll kill you with loads of BITCHY WORDS. to the public, to the relatives. don't be shy then.
and yes i have a ultra thick skin, just like yourself. but i'm gay. what's your excuse? because you are a woman?
if you happen to know my sister. oh feel free to let her read this. see if i care. i'mthisCLOSEtoSLAPPINGherface.
hell, i was dragged to muar the other day. for some crappy thing. interior. rather, product related thing. anyhow. within one day, i was influenced by a doink with, I MEAN, IT's LIKE, YOU KNOW?
it's as annoying as our typical ACTUALLY, TECHNICALLY, word. YIKS! god forbid i speak to anyone soon.
these are the only words/phrase that will surface.
i mean, it's like... you know? you know... it's like, i mean... it's like, i mean... you KNOW?
oh i don't know!!! and sometimes it's best that way. i don't want to know!
i felt sick suddenly last night. having a bad sore-throat. and then felt feverish. sneezing~ flu a-like dripping nose~ headache due to over dose of sleep~
the whole damn day i'm so moody. hell i didn't even eat oranges etc!!!
good thing we don't celebrate CNY anymore. otherwise i have to put on a super plastic face.
oh mak tuhanku Malaysia sangat PANAS~
A rather disturbing News,
read something on 'The Star' today. apparently Malaysia is donating or rather donated USD1M to Beijing, to help out the country's sudden weather crisis.
WOW.
i mean it's good to be charitable. BUT~ oh come on... a kucci rat~ helping a cat~?
being a diplomatic decision or not, i really think that it is totally unnecessary. since your country is in need of that money more. help your family before others.
there are so many other ways to help out. they could have donated food instead or something. USD1M to a country that earns way more. such nonsense. cuz i seriously don't think they need it. BLAH~
for all we know they'll end up shopping for winter clothes in lane crawford beijing
but who am i to stop people from being charitable, if you feel rich and generous today~ feel rich to contact them on ways to donate your wealth away~
A very disturbing Sign.
it says: this food court is monitored by security system, trespassers will be prosecuted!
Mid Valley. you are not welcomed to enter the food court area. for whatever the reasons, even if they closed the section to clean. it's a very UNFRIENDLY message to their patrons!!! like oh flower bridge you assholes~
today is new year, no bads words are allowed, so... say flower and bridge in canto and say it fast fast.
the time this picture was taken is, 1525 hours, 06.02.08. it's not even like 2100 hours or something. come on how do you expect people to walk from one end to the other? oh flower bridge!!!
well i did learn something new, according to 'The Star', APPARENTLY the numbers 32776 spells DAPAT.
LOLs.
i'm so in a bitching and blogging mood today~ i so loves me~ LOLs!!! i blame the heat, that causes hormone imbalance LOLS!!!!!!!!!
. plane flies off at 1755 hours tomorrow i've a messed up room unpacked luggages (from Serendah and to HK)
tonnes of unfinished draft.
unsent assignments.
messed up portfolios.
and
while everyone is doing touch ups plus re-making/re-vamping the story of "Serendah"
i'm here sitting in my room SULKING
over one tiny fact...
SHE DID IT AGAIN!!!
my mother has ordered some doinks to repaint the house! the entire house!!!
even my room was not spared from it...
i can't pack like this... fine nevermind can always BUY right...
but the fume and the mess they made... it's unacceptable!!!
BANGAU betuls!
she just has to go this NOW wan lo. when i'm super busy!!! like she can't get them in after tomorrow!!! purposely i swear!!! i can see her smirk when i was begging "TAK MAU!!!"
on top of all this crap. i'm just so excited to be back in HK tomorrow!!!
going out now to send Paris for a reformatting. ;o)
. i have been feeling better. thinking better. in fact too much thinking. way too much.
(warning: SUPERLONG LONG POST)
1st Oct 2007 (Monday)
sent a text message the idiotic cheating ass-hole father. was informed that he's away on a trip and it's at the office. yesterday 30th Sept was the last day for the road tax. now i'm basically driving illegally until i get hold of the new road tax. which is at the office. which i don't want to go back to. i know i have to put on a plastic face. and loads of questions will be asked like... where have i been the past few years? and what have i been doing? and well HOW ARE YOU DANIEL BOY?
now i wish i didn't slam the phone and allow the idiotic cheating ass-hole father to proceed with the pick up instructions.
BUT QUESTION IS... HE HAS BEEN GETTING THE AGENTS TO SEND THE ROAD TAX TO THE HOUSE, WHY THIS TIME I HAVE TO GO PICK IT UP PERSONALLY!?
someone said will meet up this weekend. YAYS. tho i seriously doubt it will happen.
cancelled all short trips. singapore, johore and ipoh. ... mmm made fb a little disappointed. will probably do it later this month...
travelling is not just a quick escape but a note to live while one is travelling constantly, they don't tend to rest as often they don't sleep that much but they are excited to go out to experience to see to listen to taste to feel to smell all this is part of living...
2nd Oct 2007 (Tuesday)
i sleep at wee hours. or rather i sleep really early. and wake up when the sun fries the ass. Malaysia is getting very warm. the world is getting very very warm. global warming is certain... warming...
I keep saying TOMORROW.
tomorrow i'll unpack. tomorrow i'll clean the room. tomorrow i'll go kay el. tomorrow i'll collect the cheques. tomorrow i'll do this. tomorrow i'll do that. and when it comes to tomorrow... i will say... TOMORROW once more.
eric texted. asked for a gathering session. tonight. i said crazy. thursday la. cibai. so last minute. besides i'm still... lethargic.
3rd Oct 2007 (Wednesday)
i've basically been doing nothing. loads of sleep. msn. shit. eat. the basic usualy lazy ass would do. been in such denial. been in such bad mood.
i called myself a dead lazy pig dead lazy skinny pig.
i will only wake up when the stoamch start grumbling.
been messaging with the ci bais paper dolls gosh they are FUN! haha miss them yasuo haruyama emailed miss everyone from berlin
a good picture is not the one that is taken but rather it is the one that remains in your head photos are nothing memories are everything
there's no point in travelling and snapping pictures continuously it only means you are, seeing the world, but thru a view finder not with your own naturally lense if so, what's the point you might as well stay home see it thru the internet
4th Oct 2007 (Thursday)
didn't sleep well. perhaps only 3 hours? waited till 7am, then went out. to buy breakfast. nasi lemak. my first after 3 months. i think i'll miss it a LOT!!!
smsed eric. to check about the gathering. replied was. just us. ... sien. but i figured, joanne must be thinking... TOO MUCH. wy yeen should still be in singapore.
then thought of going to kay el. to collect the road tax. to avoid packing... and unpacking... but naturally i didn't... i'm lazy.
met up with eric. he seems... to be missing australia a lot. poor him. turning old soon. HAHAHA. but was a good catching up session.
there should be no regrets in life regardless of what you do what has been done is done live goes on with or without you so smile and live like you were born today
5th Oct 2007 (Friday)
going/went down to kay el. FINALLY to collect the road tax.
drove to taman jaya. took the LRT. hate it. the people in the train drives me crazy. tho seeing one malay aunty made me smile,
she brought her family out for a strool an afternoon walk i figured with all the happy kids you could tell they are not well to do but yet they seem so happy
you don't need to be rich to be happy you need to feel rich to feel blessed... and happy.
arrived at klcc. had lunch with FROGGIE. he is looking... TIRED (so he claims) went to the office. collected the road tax with a plasticed surgery face idiotic cheating ass-hole father wasn't there SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF ME COMING? HAVE SOMEONE SEND IT OVER NEXT YEAR!
loitered around kl. went to pavilion for the first time. don't quite like it. seems... NORMAL. i kind of miss going out saw a camera i like. might buy it. waiting for someone to confirm to dinner
have you ever stare and glare at the sky at space and wonder or ponder
what is this? where am i? who am i? how is this.. life? is this really living? when i die what happens next? where's heaven? where's hell...
what if... this was all a game... what if... an apple is called a shit... and if a fece is known as air...
so many what ifs...
i've been staring glaring a lot recently mind just totally spaced out in trance but not a good one made me feel non-existence...
after hours of wait i decided to go home
got called for a meeting tomorrow.
6th Oct 2007 (Saturday)
woke up so early. or rather i didn't sleep. AGAIN. (karma of too much sleep)
went online. yada yada.
went for the meeting. interesting story board. accepted the job.
arranging oct's schedule.
splurge of the day...
chances aren't given chances are created you seize the moment you create the opportunity
same goes with respect you earn it it doesn't come free
but smile because it's a free bliss
7th Oct 2007 (Sunday)
decided to go church. after so long of absence. while in car. mom asked about hk's plan.
i didn't want to answer. i didn't want hope. i didn't want money. i don't want anything.
hope and faith is something i am not familiar with.
she always promise something but breaks the promises mummy will bring you to lake toba (since i was 6) mummy will bring you to visit china (since i was 12) mummy will buy you a new watch (since i was 13) mummy will this, mummy will that... mummy also said this year i'll be in melbourne for a month but... nothing mummy said came thru.
i just don't want any expectations.
Anyways... apart from those events...
i'm going on a real hiatus (just one month plus?) after this post.
while i was on the short hiatus. i visited more blogs than i usually do. and most of them inspired me.
with their lifes with their writtings with their templates and everything that there was and life itself
and all that moment... i'm thinking again... WHAT AM I DOING HERE? sitting facing the computer 24/7 complaining ranting kiasuing but doing nothing nothing at all
that's just silly you can't write a diary when you are not living
and you technically waste time which means you waste life which also means you are like... waiting for death to do you apart ... with... from life.
so i'll be taking a LONG one month plus break from the internet or rather the blogging world.
... god i hope i can survive ... blog hopping is such an addiction ... hung hung is not allowed to camwhore without me! ... mmm... i'll miss keapohing everyone's life
i present the song of the moment...
summary of word of wisdoms... advise...,
just because you are gloomy doesn't mean you have to be in a gloomy face. just smile. don't show others your emotion, your bad chi. it drags them down low as well. no point in making others feel bad and sad. this world is horrid enough and life is too long too short.
p/s: this blog shall be no longer be available for public as it will be privatized by the next full moon. those who are keen in keeping in-touch etc this is the EMAIL addy.
pp/s: to all the muslim friends, i wish you a happy hari raya in advance first. maaf zahir dan batin. (i hope i got that right)
ppp/s:... mmm is deepavali around the corner as well? erm... just incase. i'm LAZY to check... HAPPY DEEPAVALI as well!
this post might be offensive... depending how you read it... and if you have the brains for it...
a friend told me this joke... let me rephrase that... a malay friend told me this joke...
she used to be a smart ass girl... and still is cuz she reads a lot... but she's in this huge denial state becuz of this joke...
there's this city malay cikgu who was teaching the kids at school. the students were like half falling asleep thus suddenly she decided to tell a joke in the spirit to spike things up a little... (NOT)
children i've something to tell you
in the near future where all the impossible are possible, there's this man who needed a brain surgery. thus he went to a shop. a special shop that sells body parts.
the salesman (tsm): how could i help you sir? man: i need a new brain. tsm: ic ic. let me show you. this is a brain of a chinese man, it's only rm2000. man: that's cheap! tsm: naturally. since it's been overly used. while this brain here belongs to an indian man, only rm8000. man: oh. why so? tsm: it's been used but not overly stressed out. man: ic ic! tsm: but the treasure of them all is over here. a malay man's brain. it's almost priceless!
from that day onwards my dear friend stop using her brains. she claims. i so don't believe her tho. WHY? she wanted a better insurance policy for her family and having an expensive brain for them to sell after she dies (touch wood touch wood, pls live longer then me!!!) seems like a good plan.
if you didn't get the joke. you have my pity... perhaps not... do let me know who you are... i shall hunt you... cuz i might have something priceless in the near future to sell too... hehe.
and btw. happy merdeka day. malaysia... so boleh...
the duck~thins love to shop. and so do most dart~o... most of the time they shop in HK, Paris, Japan and god knows where else... they spend loads of $$$ and like moi said when moi came back from hometown (JAPAN) i really wonder how they carry 30kg worth of products only loh... when moi alone already like... over the limit... IMPOSSIBLE...
anyways... lately since moi have been so busy working in the high end market in MALAYSIA... moi have been frequently looking... admiring... bitching... enviously staring at those duck~thin[s] and dart~o[s] buying horribly priced garments... (i honestly don't mind if the accessories are priced at a mountain level... i will consider buying it...)
shop luxury A
garments like crap... really... they look like a rejected pasar malam item, (that buyer should so be fired... totally BAD taste) only made of silk i suppose... i HOPE! cost about rm 1500 per piece... dart~o... bought about 30 pieces... along with some other fugly items... total bill came to about RM50k? oh... dart~o just took out a pill of CASH... and mind you before this... dart~o was shopping in some other luxurious brands...
moi just fainted on the spot...
dart~o... mr right hand... 10k... mouth... 20k... the southside entrance... 50k... dart~o mau??? *WINK WINKs*
shop luxury B
duck~thin was looking at a bag... sales associate said it's about RM20k. duck~thin yelled... OH CHEAP!
moi fainted...
duck~thin passed the credit card... but said... OH wait... i still wanna BUY somemore... not enough la the stuffs i bought back from my recent trip in HK...
moi vomitting blood...
sales associate said... this duck~thin is our regular... usually come in onces a month...
and bare in mind... duck~thin was also spotted carrying other luxurious items... meaning god knows how much she spend on those other items alone...
plus... REGULAR SHOPPER... means... i must find her husband... seduce him... or does duck~thin want a long lost son to help gain the family 'wei chan'... family heritage???!!! I HELP!!! MOI is for HIRED~lo... LELONG LELONG~~~
most of the lower end retailers are telling me that they have no business... but whenever i see those high end and look at the amount of money that they can actually generate a day... i really wonder... is the industry that bad? is the economy really up? where do they get those endless money to spend??? i do pity the middle range brands... the bridge designers and brands... i do think that they suffer the most...
in-between brands... mmm... i might as well buy a PRADA... or GUCCI... this likedat also mau RM2k ah? siow la you... i go buy a LV~loh...
was driving and i had a sudden thought... if a chicken died... a hamil chicken died... how does those egg look like le... still solid hard har... mmm... i wonder wonder...
added out of a sudden... OMFG... i LURVES "ugly betty"!!! LOLsss... i miss the tv...
few days back i was watching the news something about an accident in times square some freak accident in the playground (theme park)
then the tv station interviewed the person in charge in charge for safety in KL i think not too sure le
he went like... er er erm er erm erm erm...
didn't know what to say la didn't expect this accident~kan so blur~loh but what trigger me was when he said this "BTW something that i already expected..."
SELEPAS ini...
he was basically saying the errors of the operator and that they are suppose to check but didn't, so "ADA KELONGGARAN~la" and SELEPAS INI, we'll make sure it wouldn't happen again... *i so hope i spelt that kelonggaran word right... so long didn't cakap dalam bahasa de*
SELEPAS INI...
we THEY love to wait and see if there's any accidents or not only then we THEY will rectify it hor...
like years ago when some motorist died and blame that he was riding dangerously when it was the 'pot hole' that killed him so the DBKL? they then decided it's time to fill that hole
forever... we wait... for some tragic accident... then *selepas ini* we do... we rectify...
MALAYSIA SYABAS! selepas ini... HAHA
know wonder the eye malaysia will only be here for 1 year cuz i'm sure there will be some KELONGGARAN again after some monthsss (more than 12 months~la)
oh so the BAHAYA... i better go play that soon... anyone wanna bring little boy go ride ferris wheel??? *eyes blinking like the SHREEK kitty*
mmm... but i am happy that our currency is UP... YAY but DAMNIT i rugi besar for my USD de URGHS
CALM.
Morbid.
Naughty.
GERAMS.
