perhaps a hiatus

i'm too depressed
and before this emo turns into a bipolar
...
bye

second place in life

am dead tired
did nothing much but shop
and yet amazingly i'm dead tired

not that tatjana is killing me
i love working with her
and nedine and mitcha
(am sure i got their names spelt wrongly, but that's not the point here)

went to spend some time with someone
and i felt,
well i have never felt so
PAIN?
HURTED?
INSULTED???
in my entire life

those words you uttered
was like a knife stabbing right into my chest
it made me feel like some second plan

so far until today
none of your activities or out hanging out together
is a full day
well not that i am anyone special to you
but there's always somewhere else for you to go
right after we chill
or somewhere you went and i'm like
a second plan

well fine

but BUT!!!
today you said something
something so insulting

what you said
sounded like this!!!
if "andy? alex?"
if he looked good
our "kai kai" would have been like what cancelled???

i feel that in life
i've always been placed in the second place
for everything
and everyone

oh god oh why am i created

what made it worst
we watched "the holiday"
so didn't help

i feel like kate and cameron
my life is kate and my emotion is cameron
i so need to burst and cry but i can't

why can't i be in the first place...

shopaholic reveals...

the road was so bloody JAM today!!! why aren't everyone gone yet!!! please go back to your hometown... wherever you came from... go go go go... i need clear roads... PLEASE... spare me!!! let me speed on the road!!! i wanna be nice this new year...
;o)

in just two days... my very innocent outing... turned into a BECKY BLOOMWOOD LIFE...
i was shopping like mad!!! like MAD!!!
i didn't even want too!!!
both li wei and myself agreed that we will not carry cash out anymore!!!
even crystal is as gila as i am...

i really never intended to buy anything... this year was the year i wanna SAVE... but i'm so hopeless with that thought...
i'm born to shop... i'm paid to shop anyways...
so if i can't beat it... might as well just indulge with it, right...?

this are some of the items i indulged on...





1... just love white tops... so i had to buy it... was cheap anyways...

2... SO CUTE... just got to have it as well... also cheap ma... astro boy... LOL... CUTEs!!!

3... since i've joined gym... i should take this supplements right? so i bought one to try... and i hate the taste!!! so deseprate for some formula... or recipe... HELP!!! any suggestions???

4... and becuz of gym... i also bought a new pair so sneakers... my 3rd pair this year... 2 more to come... i'm such a shopaholic...

5... PLUS... the gym has no free towel... and why would i want to pay rm18 a month for towels? i doubt it's clean or soft... so i bought 2 Egyptian Cotton towels... by Martex... so SOFT!!!

6... *winks* i'm so having this new sweater... MISS ELLIOT for ADDIDAS

7... having so much clothes... but i don't wear them... i needed garment covers... so bought a few more le... damn bloody ex!

8... even tho i have like 8 pairs of CK... and 4 more unopen... and god knows what other undies i have... some of them are like MIA... i needed new undies... cuz li wei said so... so bought a few more pairs... already like wearing them... and well the unopen cks like i said... it's not new anymore since i bought them quiet some time de from HK...

this is how i spend two days... shopping hopeless/pointless stuffs... paying endless parking tickets... and... wasting money for drinks like over priced tea... crystal... we're crazy...

can't wait to meet up with Tatjana... the wardrobe stylist from Germany... will be bringing her around to shop... LOL... thank god not my money... LOL...

up coming ghost town...

YAYs... everyone is on holidays... so HAPPY!!! cuz i will get to speed in KL and there's nobody to kacau me!!! i get to shop in malls with very little people around me!!! YAYs!!!

and i'm working!!! LOLs...

am not sad about it. i rather be working on CNY than facing relatives... asking for ang pau... worth so little and i have to be so nice... eeee... like so FAKE kay... i earn more loh... LOL... but of cuz it's not about money... so if it's not about money... then what's so special about CNY? it's just another day can!

can people in PR department work and not have holidays!!!

infact so excited!!! will be helping a fashion stylist or wardrobe stylist from Germany on their FILM here in Malaysia... yeaps... i'm the support team for one of a international movie production team... no idea what's the story about... LOL... not keen in reading any new scripts at the moment...

will biatche about it once i meet them... TERUJAnya!!!

can't wait to shop... LOL...
already did some minor shopping today... more energie tshirts... new undies... i so do not need them... still have 4 un-open CKs... and DKNYs... and my paul smith... LOL... but stupid li wei said new year must wear new undies... so decided to get NEW NEW once... those 4 packs are like... old even tho i have never opened them before... kekekeke





oh i'm getting old old soon... have to look and take more younger me pictures... the POODLE on moi CAP... LOL... adidas has such weird items lately... LOL

*ok got to look mature soon... grow up lu*

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
*winks ;o)*

duck~thin, dart~o & eggs

the duck~thins love to shop. and so do most dart~o... most of the time they shop in HK, Paris, Japan and god knows where else... they spend loads of $$$ and like moi said when moi came back from hometown (JAPAN) i really wonder how they carry 30kg worth of products only loh... when moi alone already like... over the limit... IMPOSSIBLE...

anyways... lately since moi have been so busy working in the high end market in MALAYSIA... moi have been frequently looking... admiring... bitching... enviously staring at those duck~thin[s] and dart~o[s] buying horribly priced garments... (i honestly don't mind if the accessories are priced at a mountain level... i will consider buying it...)

shop luxury A

garments like crap... really... they look like a rejected pasar malam item, (that buyer should so be fired... totally BAD taste) only made of silk i suppose... i HOPE! cost about rm 1500 per piece... dart~o... bought about 30 pieces... along with some other fugly items... total bill came to about RM50k? oh... dart~o just took out a pill of CASH... and mind you before this... dart~o was shopping in some other luxurious brands...

moi just fainted on the spot...

dart~o... mr right hand... 10k... mouth... 20k... the southside entrance... 50k... dart~o mau??? *WINK WINKs*


shop luxury B

duck~thin was looking at a bag... sales associate said it's about RM20k. duck~thin yelled... OH CHEAP!

moi fainted...

duck~thin passed the credit card... but said... OH wait... i still wanna BUY somemore... not enough la the stuffs i bought back from my recent trip in HK...

moi vomitting blood...

sales associate said... this duck~thin is our regular... usually come in onces a month...

and bare in mind... duck~thin was also spotted carrying other luxurious items... meaning god knows how much she spend on those other items alone...

plus... REGULAR SHOPPER... means... i must find her husband... seduce him... or does duck~thin want a long lost son to help gain the family 'wei chan'... family heritage???!!! I HELP!!! MOI is for HIRED~lo... LELONG LELONG~~~

most of the lower end retailers are telling me that they have no business... but whenever i see those high end and look at the amount of money that they can actually generate a day... i really wonder... is the industry that bad? is the economy really up? where do they get those endless money to spend??? i do pity the middle range brands... the bridge designers and brands... i do think that they suffer the most...

cheap OK! BUY BUY BUY!!! WEAR throw! can~la! fashion ma!!!

in-between brands... mmm... i might as well buy a PRADA... or GUCCI... this likedat also mau RM2k ah? siow la you... i go buy a LV~loh...

was driving and i had a sudden thought...
if a chicken died... a hamil chicken died... how does those egg look like le... still solid hard har... mmm... i wonder wonder...

added out of a sudden...
OMFG... i LURVES "ugly betty"!!!
LOLsss... i miss the tv...

28 days

god the air is so humid...
first it was flood...
now dry spell...
mmm...
is the world coming to an end?
end faster then...

i've only 28 days
then i turn 24...
yiks
so old de...
dun wan...
HAHAHA...

and yet i still behave like a kid
one that don't want to grow up
peter pan
bliek

time sure flies
like an blink of an eye
it's the piggie's year again
next round i'll be 36...
and then nearer to another BIG ZERO
with a digit 4 infront...

OMG... it sure feels like my life span is...
SO DAMN SHORT!!!
so, dear GOD... if you're going to end this world
let me know kay...
so i wouldn't save to buy a car or house
i'll just go tour instead
LOL
why bother having a house when it's going to burn
melt... or get flooded...
i might as well travel
LOL

haihz...
i wonder how will my 24th bday will be like
the pass 2 years... i've been working
the first year i was filming gol & gincu
was in citadium (now closed down de)
was the last day of shoot
javine bought me a dome cake to eat
LOL
and everyone sang happy birthday in the curve
12 midnight sharp
faz, sazzy, mel, and everyone else invovled that night
(blush blush)
was also near sazzy's birthday actually
so we sorta celebrated it together

then last year was the first day of goodbye boys' production day
was filming in bukit ceylon
nobody remembered de loh
so sad
SIGH SIGH
haha

but 3 years ago li wei and jennifer drove all the way to shah alam
and buzz me 12 mid night sharp asked me where i was
i said at home la
and they we like... good we're downstairs with your cake
LOL
so nice

mmm then 21st bday was celebrated with friends...
finally one that i have picture of...
aiyo~

that's me LOLs

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

silly us jumping up falling down

ayam who was invited to come do her own practice shoot
was eventually tricked into becoming a model for one of my test shoot
thus in return we had to model for her to shoot
kekeke
well was a long time ago...
none the less...
this pic only came to me... a few days back...
kekeke

presenting the silly us jumping up falling down





shoots done by anna aka AYAM. LOLs

SELEPAS INI

few days back
i was watching the news
something about an accident in times square
some freak accident in the playground (theme park)

then the tv station interviewed the person in charge
in charge for safety in KL i think
not too sure le

he went like...
er
er
erm
er
erm erm erm...

didn't know what to say la
didn't expect this accident~kan
so blur~loh
but what trigger me was when he said this
"BTW something that i already expected..."

SELEPAS ini...

he was basically saying the errors of the operator
and that they are suppose to check
but didn't, so "ADA KELONGGARAN~la"
and SELEPAS INI, we'll make sure
it wouldn't happen again...
*i so hope i spelt that kelonggaran word right... so long didn't cakap dalam bahasa de*

SELEPAS INI...

we THEY love to wait and see if there's any accidents or not
only then we THEY will rectify it hor...

like years ago when some motorist died
and blame that he was riding dangerously
when it was the 'pot hole' that killed him
so the DBKL?
they then decided it's time to fill that hole

forever...
we wait...
for some tragic accident...
then *selepas ini* we do... we rectify...

MALAYSIA SYABAS!
selepas ini... HAHA

know wonder the eye malaysia will only be here for 1 year
cuz i'm sure there will be some KELONGGARAN again
after some monthsss (more than 12 months~la)

oh so the BAHAYA... i better go play that soon...
anyone wanna bring little boy go ride ferris wheel???
*eyes blinking like the SHREEK kitty*

mmm... but i am happy that our currency is UP... YAY
but
DAMNIT
i rugi besar for my USD de
URGHS

(post officially done by the 8/2 0122 hours)

dumb dumbs!!!

*WARNING bitchy post*

when i started writing this post...
i was furious...
now... i'm so much calmer...
(of cuz la... been so damn long de...)
but... it still has to go...

YOU!!!
YES YOU!!!
ARE such an AssHOLE!

HORRIBLE!

don't you know how to signal???
it's a common courtesy, for me you know, you know!?

YES YOU!
oh don't deny it.
i know you don't do it!!!

how could you not know how to signal!!!
are you stupid? if you are, how come you are driving!?

GOSH!!!

malaysian please learn how to signal!

this is how a right signal looks like... you know??? RIGHT... for turning RIGHT... keeping to the RIGHT lane etc...




while this is left... LEFT!!! show it when you wanna turn LEFT... or keep LEFT...



pictures stolen from here

and please understand that the hazel light is meant for...
STOP...
EMERGENCY...
EMERGENCIES...

NOOO!!!
heavy rain is not considered as an emergency!!!

YOU IDIOT!!!

SIGNAL the next time or i'll roll you!
i drive a steamroller!!!
i can afford to ROLL you!!!

you stupid road bitch!

do i look like i care about your emotions? your needs? your incompetents? SIGNAL!

(this post was originally created on the 24/1/07, 1956 hours)

hair cut

got a hair hair last week
couldn't post earlier cuz photobucket hates me

i told miko i wanted my bangs to be there...
and i wanted a detail razor cut as well...
so i ended up getting something so hard to style...
now every morning i have to like spray and wax...
HAHAHA...

say bye bye to the very innocent boy...




and say hello to the yakuza boy...




well it will grow back... very soon... and i have wigs...
LOLs

come out come out wherever you are...

i feel like i need to run away

wait

i don't feel...

i just NEED...

i don't know why

something is just bugging me

i need to breathe

the fact is i am content with life

i'm happy with what and where i am now

but why do i feel like i do not belong here

like somewhere else is meant to be my home...

it's bloody early and i can't sleep...

so damn ennui...

damn menyesal to change this blog to the beta...
ERRRRghsss... why GOOGLE!!! STOP disturbing my email!!!

but no i haven't gone emo to the stage of not wanting to blog...
i've been so addicted to youtube...
so damn addicted...
but that's not why i want to get away...
i think i just need a holiday...
it's been a while...
HO HO HO
crystal woo when's my malacca trip???