the clock just ticks away

here i am sitting infront of my computer, wasting more than 6 hours already. staring blinding. complaining to people that i am bored in my most untidy room. with clothes thrown here and there. hangars everywhere. stuffs just lying around in a complete mess. books sitting around collecting dust, some half read so untouch. and yet here i am complaining that i am bored.

i am just so utterly depressed!

this is the one of the few off day i have.
a luxury.

well it's coming to an end. the production.
i'll be leaving soon.

tho part of me this time is very reluctant about leaving.
am i worried about going on my new journey?
i do feel excited about working far away from home.
tho my family doesn't know about it. not yet.
and no i'm not worried that they'll object the idea. i'm sure they can't wait to get rid of me as well.

something in life is just bugging me.
and i have no idea what is it.

perhaps it's a pisces thing.

gosh i'm so confused!

... i wish death will just come part me away quickly cuz this mood hurts so bad.

your size

lately everyone i meet...

they tell me this annoying statement/fact/jealousy detail of themselves...

"I USED to be your size/ your frame...:

and i'm like... SO?

i'll end up being like YOU? FAT?

or you want me to end up being like you... FAT?

yea i know i'm petite... so sue me!

not like i asked for it

not like i'm not eating

not like i puke after i eat
siow.

i am what i am... can't fight it...
so i have a 21, it's true when i suck in my stomach... 25 inch waist...
JEALOUS?
HAHAHA

but No i'm not happy with it...
and NO i don't want to end up being like you... FAT.
HAHA!

Hong Kong & Berlin

YAYs...

i've finally booked my tickets to Hong Kong this coming 10/08/07... gosh finally!

will be checking out my new place... new home... gosh... excited!!!
(i'll be based in Hong Kong from December onwards... LOLs!)

then later in Sept i'll be heading down to Germany. WOOTS!!!

i can't wait!!! so teruja!

It's gonna rain

Ashidori mo karukushite chao chao
Torumono mo toriaezu chao chao
Raion ga unaru mitai no raimei ga
Taisan wo unagashite iru
Dou naru no?
Sou...mou sugu ame

Dai kirai ame nanka chao chao
Mou sukoshi itai noni
Kaikan ga kaisan ni kawaru shunkan wo
Raion ga isogaseta no wa
Meihaku No! Meiwaku
It's gonna rain!

Ame wa mou aribai wo kesu no?
Kare wa mou wasurete shimau no?
Futari wa mou korekiri ni naru no?
Subete wa ame no seitte koto ni shite okou

Kare kara no renraku wa Nothing Nothing
Ame ni yoru kyoukun mo Nothing Nothing
Kanjou mo igirisu no tenki mitai ni
Utsurigi dattara totemo
Raku nanoni...gyaku na no
It's gonna rain!

Ame ga netsu wo yomigaeraseta
Kare mo futo watashi wo omoidashita
Futari wa ima koko ni michibikareta
Subete wa ame no sei, uun, okage na no

Ame wa hito wo yondari keshitari
Dare yori mo tegowai majishan ne
Futari wa itsumo damasarete bakari
Subete wa ame de hajimarun deshou...

It's gonna rain!

... that's by Bonnie Pink.

LOLs.

it's now like... 12 am plus plus... and i'm like... packing the hall... the wardrobe... the room... and suddenly wrapping books... suddenly doing laundry... suddenly eating... suddenly watching dvd... i'm like... so... crazy... what's that word... starts with s... mmm... gosh. whatever...

LOLs

... WTF is MIFC?

let's clarify... WTF is WHAT THE FARK!!!
which means... HUH? but it's only a bloody vulgar version...
yes i'm rude. so sue me!

thus this leaves us to the next acronym
WTF is MIFC???

(it all happened this afternoon while i was driving i stumble at this HUGE... ok not that HUGE... but big enough to capture my attention span... and it was dead hilarious!... I SWEAR!... I have to stop hanging out so near Faz...)

it's certain not MIFA (Malaysia International Fashion Awards)
... and no it's not Malaysia International Farking Committee...
oh... NO? dang...
it's... Malaysia International Fireworks Competition!!!
HORAYYY!!!




Like since when Malaysia is part of this pyrotechnics thingy... plus INTERNATIONAL somemore wor!!!
First you ban my toys! Now you suddenly have a COMPETITION???

LIKE WTF!?

i so don't get it...

but for all that it's worth... other countries are taking part... not Malaysian vs Malaysian... that... would be dead farnie! like where the heck do they even practice?



it's at Putrajaya. MMM... the website is... www.mifc.com.my... copy paste please, i'm too lazy to creat the link... HAHAHA...


GOSH this country makes me laugh...
even their website have this cute phrase... HOW TO PHOTO...



How to Photo... is that even right? It sounds damn farnie la!!! well i don't know, it just sounds... WEIRD!
well yes i have a lot of them too but this is a personal page and it's a diary... that website is not a personal page and certainly ain't a diary... it's an INTERNATIONAL website ah! lots of ang mo and ah lians go to see wan ah!
ai-ya~~~
HAHAHAHA

mana keris aku!?

Monday's child is fair of face
Tuesday's child is full of grace
Wednesday's child is full of woe
Thursday's child has far to go
Friday's child is loving and giving
Saturday's child works for its living
And a child that's born on the Sabbath day
Is fair and wise and good and gay.
author unknown

was going thru william's blog and it strike me that i forgotten which day i was born...

after searching it...

oh dear oh dear i am a friday's baby...

and it seems i love loving and giving...

DAMNIT!

i want to be loved...

i want to receive!!!

so sue me i'm selfish!

but terbalik pulak my luck...

DAMNIT!!!

URGHS... mana keris aku!?

i just want money not more cheese

oh i need to trash talk about an radio ad...

well there's too many but there's one that i really... really... HATE!

PIZZA HUT's recent CHESSE PROMOTION...

damn annoying and ridiculous!

like i mean... who the hell cares about those irritating rodents?

we are over worked
we want more pay

but they ask for cheese?

... so technically they are targeting rodents la for the ad?

not targeting people right!?

so it's a STUPID ad...

PIZZA HUT HEARTS RODENTS!!!

ぼん おどり

it's nice once a while you attend something you rarely do. that's called living. well at least to me.
thank god this festive don't happen daily... haha.
(that so do not make any sense...)

HELLOS!!!


wheezzz... me thinks... me is in the wrong kimono... but i don't care! HAHA.


Camwhore and Anna Mui (I need a hair cut... BADLY!)


crap we ate...


Alan & Tebby


Hoilee a.k.a Transformer and Enid a.k.a Leung Char Mui


Camwhores...






i swear we are such camwhores!

ultimate corset

like OMG.
I'm late.
I'm hungry.
and I'm still here typing!

I'm headed/heading for Bon Odori. But lazy to drive. Asked friends to come fetch me instead. As a result... I'm in a sauna, since I'm wearing the kimono... but it's already the minimized simplified version... only the obi belt isn't helping much... it feels like a damn corset! I swear!

and I'm like damn hungry!
ohhh hurry hurry i wanna eat!!!

gosh.

I'm such a diva...
shit heads... told you turn right! grrrs!

oh and this kimono has a chemical smell that is making me nauseous. damn second hand shops. HAHA. (but it's sooooo nice)

faints.

theory on karma. reincarnation.

i have this weird thought.
about reincarnation.
not that i believe in it, but lets say...

years and years and years before your time. our time.

Ah Beng and Ah Lian was/were a happy couple.
Even tho they love one another sooo DEEPLY.
Death tore them apart.
Well every life has a tragic story~la.

They both swore that they'll love one another forever and ever and ever~~~.
And being chinese,
(thus the name, cuz during that time... names were sh!t, ah chiu, ah ngau, ah kow, ah miu, etc)
Even after death do them apart~la
After how many times you "tau toi~la" (reincarnation).
They'll still love one another deeply, truly, madly.
Just so LOVEly.

Thus Ah Beng died.
Leaving Ah Lian all alone in this horror world.
But she died eventually.
Cuz she was deprived of other men(s).
Sex was just a NO NO.
Le Sighs.
NO you idiot she was just OLD. HAHA.
well i said EVENTUALLY. not SUDDENLY.

After 21 reincarnations... after sooo many failure of finding/getting/having their souls united...
Well since one year Ah Lian was a chicken. Then a dog. Then a cicak. ETC ETC...
While Ah Beng was a car, a worm, a snake, a tree, a fly... etc... you get the point~la...
and SO after 200 years of searching and waiting and hunting and longing...

Ah Beng, finally found Ah Lian. In this current time too!
YAYs!!!
HOORAYS!!!



BUT...









BUT!!!























BUT!!!







Ah Beng has finally found his long lost love/lover. Only she's now... in this life... a HE...
Ah Lian is now known as Ah Seng!
(OH NO!... OPS!)

Jeng Jeng Jeng JENG!
(JAWs still hanging low...)




None-the-less... he still loves her HIM...
AWWWWW~~~~
(farking a HOLE is definately better than tree s3x, car s3x, worm s3x right?)
LOLs.

Do tell me... AND WHY people believe in REINCARNATION, but they cannot except GAY relationship?

HEHEHEHE...

well the karma part was that they were a naughty naughty little couple, had s3x before marriage thus they were punished to be anything else but HUMAN. KEKEKEKEKE...

yalah... what goes around... comes around...

BLIEK!

But hey this is worth a thought ain't it... worth a debate too... HAHAHAHAHA... and well I WIN.
la la lalala la la la la lala... (think and imagine SMURFs tune)

B.O.R.I.N.G!

urghs. i hate logging into blogspot most times! it's annoying!

there's absolutely nothing to do online these days but to do rant. rant. and MORE RANTs!

haihz. 15 more days and i should be free from this cage.
YAYs!

can't wait.

that's hot. LITERALLY. ah LIFE.

OMFG. i've been so busy it's not funny.

everyday i get like apx 3 hours sleep.

been driving and sleeping.
had a near almost WOOTs accidents...
don't know if i should be happy or sad to be alive... hmmp...

ponteng from shoot today.

OH BLISS!
but well half day only le...

gosh.

blur blursss...

and to make everything worst...
the freaking weather has been like freaking HOTs!!!

i swear i've been melting!

and today the amount of sweat i drain can actually be squeezed out of me clothes...
damn gross...

yucks.
yucks.

mmm... so damn sleepys...

oh and my face... the complexion is damn fugly now.
le SIGHS...
and moi hair is like so the unkept...
double LE SIGHSSS...

but my bank account is getting FATTER...
WEEEEEzzz!!!

tho... honestly... no money can buy back my youth!!!
even if i were to take bird nest everyday now...
go countless of facials...
spas...
etc etc etc...
NOTHING CAN HELP de...
CHARLES HELPS!

i feel farking fugly!

haihz that's why hardly show any more pics de...
BLIEK!!!

anyways... before i suffer from amnesia...
i better jot down this memory part le...

on the 21st June, i went for an art exhibition opening
by my sensei.
MR CHEE.
hehe.

was like a freaking reunion.
so funz.
meet Emmeline there which was a surprise... hehe.
we did a shoot long time ago before she became miss Malaysia.
then mr tay la...
zara la...
mmm... fond people of the industry. WOOTS!

CONGRATS!!!




horrifying time flies. it's been 7 years since i meet mr chee...
you know all my lecturer are like CHEE!
chee sek thim who owns REKA, taught me product design...
chee au, taught me fashion...
E.H. CHEE who taught me art...

anyways it was E.H. CHEE who introduced me into the filming industry since i was 16... amazing huh. being the science student then... i was sooo not interested in his stories... what he was explaining was like... B-O-R-I-N-G... it was only until when i decided to take up art that all those stories started to make sense. all the history started to pull itself together. how art is an investment. and all business involves a product which requires art and design to sell.

he taught me how to select my college... that it was the lecturer that makes it important not the image of the school especially if it's art, since you are learning from the "ARTIST", not the school...

i learnt too much at such a young age... i hates it.

it's so funny this life. weird things happen so often when we lease expect it.

oh... a note of condolence... in the month of MAY, 07/07 another one of my favorite lecturer passed away... Redza Piyadasa, who was one of those lecturer you hated in the begining and LOVE at the end. I hated his classes in the begining mainly because he made us great him like what we did in high school... LIKE HELLO... i'm in college now can... and he keeps repeating his lecture weeks after week. tho after a while i start to understand why he does it. he knows his students too well... by repeating himself we remember, instead of having us study it at home which we wouldn't.

and why i remember him best... i ponteng his class with 3 other friends, about to watch a movie in klcc when our phones rang... one after another... he made hellen who was the head of faculty called our parents... immediately we FLEW back to his class... with the lame ass excuse... we went out to hunt for fabric and lost track of time... OPS... HAHA.

SIR you'll forever be missed, and THANK YOU for the lessons! oh he taught me 'eye entry'... the first thing you notice in a painting...

ahhh~ it's a funny life...

mmm... and mr bear is still an air head... it's like taking forever to fill his head with coins... I WANNA HARVEST HIM!!! and then go shopping!

i shall update nonsense soon... soooo NEED to shop and flaunt my PR gifts...
WA HAHAHAHA!

... honestly this was suppose to be a very short post... but it turned out to be... draggy... hehe. OPS!
;o)