drowning without a float.

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mood: Cloudy.

a stray thought.

years ago, to be exact 11 years ago,
i shut myself away from people.
friends i knew since 6 was shunt away from my life.
most of them at least. especially those of the same age.

i remember vividly.
the moment i arrived school the next day,
there was a group of people. (note people not friends)
would ask what the fuck is wrong with me.
what's bugging me. that we should talk.

what was done, was done.
and it's too slow too late.
nothing major happened.
but every minor little things,
they lead to something major.

one small dot means nothing.
have a few and they become an irritable stain.

i turned away from a lot of people.
mixed with only a very selected few.

some i had no choice since they were classmates.

in general, i was alone most of the time.
not that i was a social outcast.
somehow i just wanted to be the outcast.

i liked that.
not needing anyone.
not having to depend on anyone.
not needing any interaction.

that's why i usually travel alone.
it's such freedom.
only restriction is when i eat.
probably that's why i hate meal time.
everyone is with someone.

it was only after high school that i opened up.
being in new grounds. i should.
oddly enough there were comments that i was too friendly.
like it was a crime to care about course-mates.

no doubt if there was a congeniality competition
i am most likely to win it.

however now recently, there's that urge again.
to shut myself away from people.

most days it feels that there's no difference,
having friends or not.

some days i wished there was someone i could call.
and scream everything out.
but, there's not much point into that.

sometimes i pounder to let go my frustrations and anger.
hoping for someone to share my emo emotions.
then again, if you already know the problem,
and you know the solution,
then why bother asking or telling people.
it becomes a rhetorical question.

since most of the time i am alone.
only, by fact i do have friends,
just that i am usually left alone, behind.

yes, of cause everyone is busy with work.
tho i do find that a lame fact.

time can be created, especially when there's a funeral.
i created a lot of time, for my dead lecturers.
for their funeral.
not very proud of that.

so i am confused.

i might as well, learn to be alone again.
since it's going to be a long quiet journey.
better get used to it again.

and nay. i guess i rather not have that open heart anymore.

i've been developing very plastic smiles lately.
i feel like i look wryly with it on my face. -_-

this blog will be on a hiatus.

HONKSSS!!!

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mood: CALM.

ah... i need to be on the left lane soon.
ah... there's some space and i can move in.
ah... i shall signal to go into that lane.

tik tok tik...
HONKSSSSS!!!!
stupid selfish old man decided to speed to fill the SPACIOUS gap
and HONKS while doing so.

ouch. grouchy old man. so mean.
T_T bully small boy.

ah. nevermind right lane is still faster~
OH. left lane is closed.

HA! serves you right old man, you still need to come to the right lane later.
i guess, THANKS~ i might be slow but i'm in-front of you.

and ah. i didn't need to be on the left lane just yet, not my turning yet.

so EAT my DIRT you old sagging asshole.

i am amazed that i no longer need to be evil to certain people.
karma has its way for to handle things vengeance for me.
ahhh...

edited: 1500, 19.04.08
OMG look at my england. OMG the grammar. horror horror...
digging a hole on the ground to burry my face~
tergamak aku gi correct grammar orang lain manakala aku punya macam tahi~
kekeke...

malaysians we are the most friendly drivers. i do admit.
LOL.

taking a step back.

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mood: Silly.

silly little prince.
how many times must we remind you?

remember those words, remember the curse.
remember them all. remember them well.

there will come a day when you will know,
why those reasons were said.

there will come a time when he shall show.
but for now, be patient for good riddance's sake.

there's a tale, so follow this tail.
tell no one about his frail.

don't worry too much.
don't think too much.

all is well as they are well planned.
believe. and have a little faith.

take a step back.
and relax the journey to his nest.

we don't want to see you get hurt again, and again.
don't believe the words others has said.
those will bring nothing but mistakes.

they utterly mean nothing much.

you can't afford to take such steps,
fear and afraid that you'll be so sad.


remember little prince, you were born to bring joy to others,
your journey might be sorrow. your journey will be lonely, but that is your cross to bare.
but also remember little prince your prize awaits you at the gate of peter.
only then...

too kinky for our toilets...

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mood: Whammy~.

i've always wondered if i heard such noises in the loo,
is it something KINKY going on???

... now to a certain someone... don't so naughty at public places ah...
you never know if you'll be the next edison.
^_^

K-A-N-A-S-A-I

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mood: ANGRY.

yes, it's a little old news, but i was BUSY

this is why most malaysian chinese are never proud about their nationality.
this is also why we hardly use our national language.

it's partly because we are never made an equal.
always the outcast.
a third world citizen.

this is also the reason why foreigners get confused with
malaysian chinese.

you are a malaysian... but you speak chinese?

this idiot made me feel... unwanted. T_T

granting me... a citizenship to a country where i had no choice when i was born is UNJUST.
like who are you kidding?
you are blessed to have me as your citizen!
not the other way around.

no, i have nothing against malays. i have so many malay friends.
i am just... shy shy ah that i have a stupid prince, CROWN PRINCE living in... "MY COUNTRY"...

i am also speechless... what's that word... dumfounded...

cis.

this has spark him an instant fame to stupidity, you can so goggle him now.
note to self: to be famous is to be stupid & silly...

colours behind the meaning of life

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mood: Calm.

we come into the world without teeth.
we grow old and loose them.
perhaps it's because we no longer need to eat?

i was trying to find my old notes.
those i wrote for michael barret's english literature class.

couldn't find them.
so i have to rewrite this.

this will be a series of my pass thoughts,
my notes,
they were assignments of a daily journal.
which we had to submit weekly.
what we have observed, what we did etc...

and this was one of my favorite observation

about colours in life.

life is a funny thing.
colours are like senses,
and signals to life,
that makes life funny, and interesting.

when we are born, our hair is light.
it turns darker as we age.
and again lighten as we age even more,
till it's white. all white. pure white.

unlike flowers, trees, and animals,
when their life begins,
they are so colourful, so beautiful. vibrant.
but once they age, they turn dull.
like their purpose is done.

cremate them to ashes and they turn white.
they reunite with the earth, a new purpose.

this whiteness seems to symbolize,
that there's another purpose, yet again in life.
as if as when we age, when our hair turns white,
there's another reason we should live again.
or a whole new adventure awaits us, after life.

that we should be pure before we begin a new life.
a new phrase.
we should be in an enlightenment state to do so.

let things be, leave them.
don't have any regrets, drop them.
don't let the past haunt you.

live life with no regrets.
leave life as pure as you came.

turning some leafs over

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mood: Tired.

i asked the memory to drill out some past.
those that will cheer me up.
those that will make me laugh.
we need sadness to reflect on happiness. but now i need laughter.

and this is what i remembered when li wei said 'mo tor mo him'.
*we owe one another nothing*
instantly, i remembered a coursemate's silliness.
she is a b-a-n-a-n-a.

everyday when we go out eating with her,
we either burst out in tears
or we'll be damn shy sitting next to her.

when paying for a meal~

misanthrope: nah, no worries. i'll get this.
miss dory: oh. thanks. next round on me la.
misanthrope: haha, can then we mo tor mo him.

later that day in college she was returning a favour to a friend.
i heard her saying...

miss dory: mo hung mo min.
*no breast no face*

the whole class burst into laughter.

but her classic is just this...

miss dory: i tell you a joke.
misanthrope: ok.
miss dory: the other day i was at the night market. i wanted to get some kuih. but knowing me la. so bodoh. i went to the aunty and then...

miss dory: aunty one of this and this, and then one jee tau peng.
aunty: glare at her and then ignoring her...

only later, after a few seconds she realized she asked for a WRONG thing, she wanted ham jee peng.
*some chinese kuih*
*jee tau peng = one pig head*
there were many many more silly incidents.
most which i am slowly forgetting.

lets jot them before i forget...

You Could Be Happy

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mood: Blank.


You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

putting the I back into misanthrope

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mood: Morbid.

i...
have not been able to function properly. there has been too much emotions going on lately. some pleasant. some, well the opposite direction. at times they don't mean anything. as life has to go on. but there are just times, often times, i wish i was back like how i used to be. i don't want to care. i don't want to feel. i don't want to love. i want to hate. and shield myself from everyone. i don't trust. i don't believe anymore. each day now. i am feeling the old me back. i want to be what i used to be.

why should i learn to trust people around me, when all i have going on now is hate.

we go woosh~ and WOOSH~

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mood: EXCITED.

the original plan was to do it the second day i got back from hong kong.
but since there wasn't enough people, the plan was postponed.
major DANG!

then finally li wei called again last week.
and proof. the next day we went. 28.03.08
HEHE!

apparently her cousin brother's friends will join.
and. WOW.
firstly, they are from hawaii.
secondly, they are half japanese.
thirdly, they are now based in JAPAN.

WOOTS~

anyways... we had to leave early in the morning. 7am.
to gopeng~

li wei and james drove.
i was being the clown in the car.
like a 'radio buruk'
*which means talk non stop, all nonsense*

we were brought to the resort upon arrival.
waited for other groups, then was given briefing. too much to remember.
donated a lot of blood. bring repellent!!!

tho the actual schedule got screwed up,
we will get wet then dirty now.
but hack, OFF we go~

white water rafting~

woosh~ woosh~ spoosh~~~ SPLASH!


i've always, always wanted to do this!
it's major major fun!!!
amazing experience!!!
am so looking forward to the monsoon season!!!

oh and we had constant water war along the river banks!
did some mmm... body rafting? SO SHIOKS!
everyone was so FUN and HAPPENING~



brent was being a big monyet. his body is damn chiseled! DANG!


lunch was served.
and then we chilled.
the river was SUPER ICE COLD.

li wei was being very disgusting, telling me, people shit in the river,
that it's totally normal and fine!
i swallowed water while doing body rafting... -_-#


then later we were transported like pendatang asing,
illegal immigrant/worker
literally, we were standing on a truck, riding like livestocks?
was cool tho. if the trees weren't so LOW!
to our next adventure.
CAVING~ ... i forgotten the name of the cave -_-



was too dark to take much pictures.
but it was for a whole 3 hours.
and the water rafting was about 2 hours?
by the time we were done, we were half dead!?
and that's like only the day activity we had install!??

and we saw 2 snakes. they had the triangular head? EEEEK!!!

went back to kl after a quick shower.
send the boys back to the hotel for a proper bath.
we went back to bath. and a quick snack meal.

and OMG. i never knew that KL had such a great place to chill!!!
we went to 'Look Out Point'
i've no idea where we were.
but the sign board said KAJANG...


brent, daryl, xming, li wei, daniel, sean, clinton, james, and erm... jess??? yiks. sorry!

totally amazing. they called it the little genting.
perfect spot to berpancaran~

then went to bangsar for drinks. la bodega.
then to murnis to eat. we ended the day... night morning at 5am...

li wei was like... i'm old. can't take, do this much already. -_-
... sad to say but... SAME HERE...
daryl was guessing my age... his guess... 27.
@$#%^&%#@#%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-

Amazingly Kelakar

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mood: OK.

Thanks to the speed of facebook,
I don't even have to hunt for videos anymore.

This are both separate emotion videos.

One will probably leave your jaw open.
As to wonder how they managed being so... STILL.

And the other, just don't be drinking while watching.


sugoi!


poop poot poop poot~ ~~ ~~~

music sound control on the left

EDITed one hour later...
and like all addictions, you just keep clicking and clicking and clicking.

a store that actually fits 111 (and more) males, plus, topless.



and this is just so WICKED!


would have been better if all hand phones had a specific tone tho...

Improve Everywhere

gosh it's like an epidemic! i so want to do one!!!
i don't care even if it seems wu liau! (too free?)
even singapore has one version of a painter painting blank!
malaysia... so boleh... -_-

EEEE!!!
the freeze thing!!!
sooooooo manyaks countries doing it!
where's malaysia!?

tokyo~


hong kong~


berlin~


and etc

reEDITed 3 hours later...

EEEEEEE!!! malaysia done de.
EEEEEEE!!! the quality is like... shioks sendiri...
-_-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-Bycc6p8tA...
thank god that's not the official one.
we shall... wait and see the official video from Improve Everywhere

A post that Killed Two Overdue Memes.

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mood: CALM.

i am still very deprived of the internet!
T_T

From Monkey With Tartar Sauce, Azhan.

5 Things Things You Didn't Know About Daniel

Daniel was 45 kg from Form 1 till the age of 22.
Eat or don't eat.
The weight was pretty much stagnate.
There's a speculation that there's a tape worm living in him.

Daniel had a weird habit when he was a kid,
he will sort of adjust things in the supermarket rack,
if they weren't in alignment. Or properly sort them.
So to avoid being silly, he avoid such aisle.

Daniel dislike drinking water when he was a kid.
Always tea or soft drinks only.
And now he usually buys bottle water to drink,
not from the boiled water at home.
He claims that there's a plastic smell.

Before Daniel goes to bed,
he needs to wash his foot.
And his foot must be covered.
He gets agitated otherwise.
Fearing that someone/something might touch/pull his legs.

Both of Daniel's baby fingers are slightly curved.
It ain't straight.
winks

apparently this is a 8 facts about yourself... i so LAZY already la!

From Boyz World, Kenny.

1 Which feature do you zoom in on when you meet a guy for the first time?
His eyes.

2. Who is your role model?
The mirror's reflection.

3. What's the healthiest thing you would eat among sushi, salad and sandwich?
Salad.

4. Which movie you can watch again and again?
Sound of Music.

5. Three gadgets that you can't live without?
Ipod, Camera, Computer.

6. What is your most annoying habit?
Laziness.

7. What's one thing you're glad you've outgrown?
Of not going to the dentist.

8. I get nervous when...
I see a needle, keen in sucking out my blood.

9. My biggest fear is...
When the bank account is going empty.

10.The best thing I've done for myself is...
Getting braces!

11. Pass this meme to 6 people.
38 Kia
Aaron
Drowned Glass
Little Dove
Miss Cake
Pinky

Cheap Thrill

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mood: Cheerful.

so after chloe's maison party.
(konon-kononnya a MAISON) -_-

zoe was like. omg.
daniel, are you going for the yacht party tomorrow.

OMFG. YAY!
... so gate crashing!

the next day was totally PANAS.
literally.


burning
melting
evaporating

sadly due to the delay of the yacht,
zoe couldn't make it. she had VIP dinner.
DAMNIT!

i'm still gatecrashing!


got lost. in klang.
since i forgotten to ask which port.
or... WTF is the 'party'
i went all the way to pulau indah.
OMFG
called adrien where the hell is port klang.
called cheryl for directions.
yada yada yada yada

fast forward

the event was basically for crocs.
yes. crocs. yes.
that fugly foot shoe previously un-pretty shoe (PUPS).
actually the old model is still FUGLY

after the massive crazy crave for those... PUPS.
newer versions were made.
some improvised.
like with extra holes for the buttons. etc.
i was still, not very convinced.

BUT now. YAY!!!
newer! better! HOTTER!
FETICHE range!!!
*FINALLY!*

well of cuz that's why we are there for.
to see new nicer crocs.



crete canvas (totally HOT!)
capri canvas (totally FETICHE!)
yukon (the new PUPS version with leather, totally SPEECHLESS!)
kids pelican (totally CUTE!)

and cyprus, i didn't like the picture. but it's SO cool.
high heels crocs! LOL!!!
(pictures from the press kit)

see bitch like me.
don't like will not go. (to the stores)
unless they make some cool party,
so cool that i HAVE to gatecrash.
to find out about the products ma

they even had
head/shoulder/hand massage,
fish spa treatment,
and manicure sessions for the guests.

free sessions, no need pavilion. HAHA.
feeding the fishes


of cuz there were models wearing them.
but hell, i had to...
pretend i'm SO interested with the shoes.
which... i ENDED am.



santa cruz the ala 'jazz palas'

the crocs yacht is 17meters, 33 years of age, was made in greece


what a cheap thrill!
^_^


a pink... ship. LOLs.


i'm so going to get a crocs
but never this version


it's been so long since a company did a proper pr event like today.
fun
entertaining
laid back product introductions
totally uber-ly cool.

these days with the constant "budget" phrase has been making events
so BAD
so LAME
so BORING!

ah. what a happy happy hot day. i have fever now.
DANG.

this deprivation of the internet is killing me slowly, till today i've yet to read any blogs...
-_-#

A MAJOR Movie Marathon with Your 1 Cent Worth

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mood: Happy.

There might be some, major spoiler.
Since... most of them are not out yet.
Well expect the first one...

GOOD LUCK CHUCK

Yes it's a little out of date movie.
But fuck. I feel like Chuck this year.
Like Karma is getting her way back at me.
... URGHS. Like how the hell would I have known!

female ow ow worth: 5/10


AWAKE

O.M.G. if it makes it into the cinema without a CUT.
Then, the visual effect during the operation theater,
That might freak you out.

But not for long tho.

It's a good story plot.
Only if you don't pay attention to the art direction.
Cause the spoiler is in the opening.

Something like the Sixth Sense.
You have to SEE IT.
And then you'll feel... CIU BOSAN SIAL!

female ow ow worth: 6/10


THE MIST

Stephen King's movies are rather... over rated.
Don't expect much but the emotional tragic draining challenging ending.

How disturbing. But as a fact, I might have done the same.

female ow ow worth: 6/10


SILK

I would honestly like to say it's a nice movie.

BUT. it's rather a big HUGE at the end.

They don't really explain WHY the worms are dying.

And you end up thinking... WTF is this movie all about.

Well it's about love. Nice romantic words spurt out at the end.

female ow ow worth: 6/10


27 DRESSES

I just have to say,
I LOVE THE ENDING.
SO KIUTS!!!

*goodness this movie was showing in HK long long time ago...*

female ow ow worth: 9/10


THE NANNY'S DAIRY

I read this book.
*GOSH all my favorite chic lit is turning into MAJOR movies*
WHAT IT'S CALLED EASY READING! NO NEED TO THINK CAN!

A life of a society woman. Having nothing to frust about. But your husband's affair.

If you know and understand the upkeep of high society women you will then probably understand Mrs X behaviour.

But in most silver spoon child's life, a mother's love is the most precious gift he could ask for.

No doubt it's not an excuse for having a Nanny Service when you have absolutely nothing else to do.

Very touching. Very emotional.

But like all books turned movie... the book is better, cause no art direction or actor's screen play could project the words into reality. Cause it's in YOU.

Plus point Chris Evans is in it. Anticlimax, they don't show the sex scene. DANG!!!

CUTE scene, Grand Mother X is reading the Devil's Wears Prada at the beach. HEHEHE!!!

female ow ow worth: 9/10



mr bear, reaching a fancy and last zinc chrome pok-a-dots shorts.

as of 1st april, malaysian's most prized possession. the one cent coin will officially be worthless. literally. so if you do keep them, remember to exchange la.

and i'll be so deprived of the internet. le sighs. but well, i'm enjoying the time loitering around people's office more. HAHA.

L

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mood: oh PANAS.

was at gym.
working out.
took a short break.
really short break.
was sipping 100 plus while reading the star.
and wow. simply delicious.

i intended to look up on his details long ago.
but always slipped my mind.
until that article,
well i didn't bother reading.
the picture was enough.

i NEVER expected... that...
kenichi matsuyama to be so... O_O
hots? sexy?
simply delicious. LOLS!!!

compare this with his character (L) in Death Note...
soooooooooooo different!!!
*and his other characters...*



i wonder. if i'll get to see him next year in the tokyo film festival. ^_^
lets hope we both make a movie by then.
ok fine so he's in some movie for next year. DANG.
i NEED a new one!

he's really good at acting. ah.
すごい！！！
*sugoi!!!*

is this a curse or blessing

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mood: DOZY.

now they say that it's a blessing that you can eat a lot.

that you get to savour all the different kind of flavours.
that some people, especially women,
they would gain weight while breathing. -_-

but has anyone thought or figure what it's like being slender?

people might think that you do not eat.
that you are an anorexic.
or worst a bulimic.

often time,
being slender also means you are SMALL BUILT,
if you go Chili's they'll keep asking for your ID.
that's if you sit at the bar area, or someone is drinking alcohol
club bouncers are your BFFs. they LOVE asking for your ID.
you can feel flattered,
and then flatten when they over do it in ONE NIGHT.

you really need GOOD clothes to look GOOD!
sometimes XS makes you SUPER SLIM THIN.
but i get to buy KIDS CLOTHES!!!

if you go gym, their first statement is where's the muscles?
they don't even bother asking how long have you been doing it, or maybe,
it's to be fit, like to regain cardio?
NO it's just the MUSCLES!!!

how freaking shallow can people be?

PLUS you know how freaking expensive it would be to rare be me?

and i don't mean my the now very deprived luxury shopping adventures,
i mean feeding me!!!
i eat like... breakfast, brunch, lunch, tea, dinner, supper...
i'm like a bottomless pitch. a black hole!!!
i eat fruits like i drink water.

and the worst statement i had from a girl friend during a lunch break was,

cecilia: OMG, body so small but can eat so much!
here i thought she's yet another envious soul

me: yaloh.

cecilia: Such a WASTE!

me: EH!?

cecilia: YA WHAT!

me: what do you mean leh!?

cecilia: if you eat all the ginseng, drumsticks, birds nest, all the PO items, also no use, cuz don't know where all the nutrients go to la! so you say le not a waste meh? isn't it a waste of money!?

me: -_-... they become fece. no wonder you are rather... rounded...
too PO...

so you see, being slender also means i am a total waste of MONEY ah! T_T

as i type this, i'm hungry. and i just had dinner 2 hours ago. -_-

a true malaysia think of food like he thinks of... breathing.
the minute he is having his breakfast, he thinks of what's for lunch.
therefore i am only being... patriotic.

here's a theory

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mood: CURIOUS.

i had a talk.
with several people.

so let's have this survey.

when we blog, it's about our life etc.
true that.

and then, we probably blog hop.
that's definitely. without a doubt.

since our life could be SO BORING~
while reading others could be so MUCH MORE FUN!

so of cuz after a while you would want to meet up.
you know. i mean. it's like,
to meet new friends and to know one another better?

then it gets a little more complicated.
some might even want to sorta date.
i mean, it's like. you know...

but then it's like, you know, i mean...
bumper cars!?
playing taufus!??

like ho ho.

so. here's the thing.
do you think that most queer blogers are like...
BOTTOM or VERSATILE.
but never a TOP?
LIKE rather hardly a TOP.

like the TOP do not BLOG.
like... NEVER.
like... seriously... NEVER?
i mean... like WHO?
TELL ME... *WINKS*

and like that's WHY it's like duhz. so many singles!!!
cuz we are like... going in circles!!!

btw i'm not implying anything to my position. LOLS
WA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

omg. i'm too funny. i love me.
yawns.

BTW: if you didn't noticed.

i'm like,
100% effect with,
i mean...
oh well you know.

growing up

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mood: WORRIED.

this few days,
while you were away.
my mind.
they started panting.

i'm over thinking,
i know.

it's not like we are official now.
but yet,
it feels like i'm not good enough.

yes, that's why i asked for a year.
but i need to know...
... ... ... ... ... ... ...

i'm basically so worried.
if i fit the shoes.

you're the only one.
that i truly want.
that i can imagine spending my life with.

for that i need to be better.
be stronger.

i wish i hope i can cope.

i better cope.
i better be all that i/you hope.
cuz i seriously cannot imagine life without you.

yes, take it slow i will.
whatever happens happens.
i know. i know.

it's all part of growing up.
THANKS babe. :D

*i don't want to end up like what pinky said... psychotic -_-*

ah~ so shy ah...
i also promise... i will NOT merajuk. cuz the last time it so back fired! major-ly back fired. -_-

apa ertinya

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mood: Naughty.

dengan akhirnya undian.
satu perkara yang ku lega,
PALLING lega,
ialah sami akhirnya disingkiri.
dan nasib juga dia mengakui kekalahannya.

sedar diri je la~
rakyat tidak sukai.

YAYs!!!
tamat juga kuasa anda!!!

tapi apa ertinya?
perubahan ni bukan setakat OPP mengambil alih kawasan tertentu,
tapi juga apa ertinya sebagai seorang rakyat malaysia.

sudahkah kita bangun dari tidur,
dari mendiamkan diri selama ini,
dan hanya pandai membuat bising,
bila keadaanya tidak selesa.

ia memang benar, yang kita telah menyuarakan pendirian kali ini.
tapi adakah kita berjuang sehingga setakat ni sahaja?
dengan segala perubahan ni, kita patut mengambil kesempatan,
untuk menjadi seorang rakyat malaysia dengan lebih bangga.

kita tidak seharusnya membiarkan sahaja pemimpin yang berjuang demi kita,
tapi juga memainkan peranan kita sebagai penduduk dan rakyat.

walau bagaimana cacatnya sistem negara,
atau politiknya, ini adalah negara kita.

ini juga masanya pemimpin baru dihulurkan bantutan anda.
jangan salahkan je kalau pemimpin baru jatuh nanti.
yang anda salah undi. tidak patut mencalonkannya.
hulurkan la bantuan anda untuk menjadikan negara ini lebih makmur dan maju.
dan kaya~~~ kita ada petroleum, tanah, tapi miskin je la.

lihat je la, singapura yang tidak memiliki apa-apa tapi lebih makmur, maju dan kaya!
sehingga memiliki beberapa syarikat dari luar negaranya.
dan mengambil-alih, membeli syarikat BESAR siut dari negara USA, CHINA, dan sebagainya.

kita juga patut menunjukkan kepada negara lain yang kita bangga menjadi rakyat negara.
jadi, bangga la,
bangga la dengan menggunakan bahasa negara sendiri juga.

sebab hanya dengan bahasa ni sahajalah, kita boleh kutuk orang lain bila kat luar negara. oh maklumlah ini sebab hanya kita yang memahaminya

HAHAHA. omg. i tried. LOLs... i hope there isn't much spelling mistakes or major tatabahasa errors. LOLs!!!

i can't write anymore in malay. i am so bursting up here.
it's too funny.

but seriously we still have our roles to play.
it's not done yet.

i do hope it makes sense.
stop saying we'll wait and see what the OPP can do.
or what the BN could have done better.
you are a MALAYSIAN as well.

and be proud to use your national language. i MEAN it!

and learn to recycle. reuse. reduce.
it's for our own good.
:D

this is a community service, brought to you by... bit*chin. LOLs!

Being Younger

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mood: Happy.

The day started with a little work.

Once that was done, a hairdcut was badly needed.

This has been so far the most expensive haircut ever! rm188

*i usually consider it a bad hair cut when the next day i get up and i get a bed head.
-_- this hairstylist's cut is flawless... i had no bed head... i'm dead*

But it was a good hair cut. Nice style. Just a hefty price. Even after a so called discount was given. -_-

Went to the gym, did a little workout and later started getting dressed up for the nights event~

My 25th birthday party.

Celebrated on the night before the actual date just so when we are done celebrating, it is the official date 11 March. :P
That's why it was held on a Monday night.

I know a lot of people made noise why MONDAY night. Well... now you know why la. :P

The guest of the evening were, Adrien Z, Alvin Lee, Alvin Chan, Anna Rina, Crystal Woo, Ivan Lee, Nicholle, Kenneth Lim, Li Wei, Pink.

Ben dropped by to pass me pressie. *altogether now, SO SWEET*

Last minute Samantha couldn't make it.
Night before William was caged by his female boss.
Paul went MIA. -_-
And the others said it's a Monday night. BLEH.







This is the second time I threw a karaoke party. Why? It's the only reason why I'll be in a karaoke parlour. I is so SHY in singing otherwise. Since vocal cord has been damaged since young.
*Adrien Z and Alvin Chan even beat the singing Queens, Miss Pink and Nicholle!!!*

Tho the initial idea was to have a private movie session, it was so private that only 8 guests were allowed. -_-
Then I wanted to do a yacht thing like in HK, but I fear it's overly expensive... and later somebody will say I copycat. -_-
So Samantha said why don't do a karaoke again la. *tapi SI SAM tak DATANG pulak!*





pressies~

having a party wasn't because of the pressie~la!
william you so did not read that... i want my present! LOLs!
but i so evil and greedy. haha. tho i had one unexpected pressie ^_^

crystal came with a uber cool present! a guest book. hehe. and everyone was asked to write something inside. LOVES it.


^_^ they had a rough time thinking what to get. LOLs!


the highlight pressie of the night~

it will forever be treasured! thinking it was food as it came in kellogg's frosties box. ^_^
and i'm craving for that cereal now. heh.
and later when i opened to actually eat it, i saw this. i was just speechless.
thanks ben, love the personalized scribbling inside.

thank you all for coming for the wonderful moments, for the pressies, for having to go thru hell of thinking WHAT I WANT! i really do love them all la! ^_^

and i hope the party sang monday's blue away, cuz i refused to have it on tuesday night or the weekends.
*that one ma hai oh!*. hehe.

OH OH OH!!! and all the great sports for following the yellow dresscode. heh! you brighten up my night. so yellow. so bright. ^_^
even ben wore yellow. heh.

THANKS ANNA for the wonderful pictures!!!

some people. they just need to be the focus of the camera. tsk tsk tsk.


i learnt that it's also Wingedman's Bday. YAYs!!! I share the same day with someone! COOLS!!! Happy Birthday~

sky so bright

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mood: Content.

the week was gone like the wind.
that's what happens when you get busy.

not that i'm complaining.
i do enjoy being tortured with work.

i do grumble about it.
but i grumble about almost everything.

somethings happened that i disliked.
somethings happened that was pleasurable & favourable.

was walking at bintang walk this evening,
after a rather gloomy walk.

i looked above the sky,
and saw...



i felt so content.
it feels like the bitter days are going to be peeled away,
and the brighter days are to come.

slowly, layers by layers.
and it will be bright all the way.

i'm not sad. nor happy. but i am content.
and for that i'll be grateful for.

to top the day,
christina (who owns SHINJU PEARLS, lot 10) gave me a ring.
to cheer me up.
how SWEET!!!
it's an AGATE stone.

zebra the ring

^_^
YAY!

Ma Hai oh~

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mood: Tired.

LOLs.
I'm worth more... LOLs...
can't be helped.


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