8 years, 3 months, 4 days

i was nine when i first saw you.
and
it's been eight long years three months four days since i last saw you.
it felt like only yesterday...

my baby dog.

my chirstmas present.

the only one that i ever wanted. and ever gotten from daddy.

i was bugging him forever for a puppy.

and my neighbour's bitch just gave birth to one.

one that i had my eyes on. she named you mickey.
cuz of your eyes.
(he was a pitz mix with some germany breed)
lucky and momo was his parents.

joanne, didn't want me to have you.
but eventually. god gave me the most precious gift
i could ever ask for in my life...

...

i named him astro.
after a disney movie i saw
about a boy and his dog.

we just got back from langkawi
i was sick
(and it was raining i remember)
but when i got home
my grandma said he's yours
go get 2 packes of sugar
(we used this to change for the puppy as a token instead of cash)
he came to a home so bare
with nothing more than a green plastic milo bowl
i had nothing much to offer him but milk
he has offered me his whole life

yes... those few days he ran back to my neighbours place
then i'll run there see him spend time with his family
he would play with his sister yim yim
we would then play
i liked his teething bites
'real sharp teeth you had as a puppy, boy'

once he jumped from the garden to the drive way and cried
cuz he felt right on his nose
silly billy
'told you it was high'

he bites everything
and mum would scream
but i would yell back

he's my little prince
he bites whatever he wants!

he digs and ruin the garden
dad would yell
i would BLOW
he digs whatever holes he wants!!!

i usually can't wait to come back from school
to play with him
we would spend the whole day playing

i made a signal noise
after seeing tomateru doing the same with his dog
i decided we should have one too

you'll ask me to tickle you
you'll just roll over

once i fed you water
you choked.

you got jealous whenever i played with gizmo
(his son. my sis then got a pomeranian)

once you ran out to play
i was chasing after you
we both stop to see a cat fight
and i was right next to you
we were sitting next to one another
and then we were like...
eh... why haven't i chain you
and
you were like DANG why am i not running!

baby boy...
i'll always miss the way you sit
the way you always wait at the door
you were always there
waiting for me
but i was never there for you
i was a bad master

we grew up together
but we didn't grow old very old together
i miss you

my chirstmas wish...
i wish he's in heaven
i know he's in heaven.
i wish one day i'll see him again
hugging him
smelling my smelly baby boy...





many moments
all are remember
many photos
most are missing
but yet
they are all still in my head
my memories
thanks for everything!
(so don't rhythm. but i loves it)